Thursday, December 6, 2007

I feel so bad

Our bunny rabbit "habbie" is getting fatter by the minute as the kids are really taking turns in feeding him, bought leafy veggies and carrots, will be going to the pet shop for pellets sana sa weekend, kaya lang ...

The other day kasi "habbie" stays in a basket kasi di pa ako nakakabili ng cage for her, i put lang cloth sa basket para she remains dry from her trip to the ladies room ... kaya lang nagmove yung cloth kaya nagkaron ng chance magka-puddle and "habbie" chose to lie there with all the "stuff". So Vin said "mama, the rabbit has poop on her head, can i still hold her?" .. napaisip ako kasi my sister naman pointed it out that the rabbit is from the family of rats, eh di ba deadly ang mga wiwi nila and all, so i told vin na don't touch her first. Dumating naman sina Bea at Sam and wanted to hold na din, this time napansin ko na halos lahat ng fur niya sa baba is medyo yellow na with stains. I searched the net if i could give the rabbit a bath... as per findings pwede naman daw only if really necessary... i deemed the situation necessary ... so i heated water for her, closed the bathroom door para walang draft .. and gave her a bath.

I first soaped her paws, kasi yun yung mga madudumi, then mabilis na buhos (mga 2x) lang then soaped with baby soap na super bilis and rinsed... the bath was over in 3 minutes. Wrapped her, and blow dried her right away.

When she was back in her white fluffy form i put her back in her now clean basket but she looked weak na. Panic seeped in na ... kasi before the bath she was okay ... i took her in my arms again and placed her close to my chest to make her more warm and i kept on talking to her. She was looking naman and then i told them to feed her while i was holding her, she ate naman, so i guess okay naman siguro.

Pero pag binababa ko na siya parang wala nang control siya sa mga legs niya, para siyang nagspiplit...OMG!
Till bago ako matulog i was by her side talking to her, and i put blanket on her, she usually sleeps sa room, eh naisip ko kasi aircon baka ginawin, so sa may door na lang siya natulog.

Nung nahiga na ako Christian said bakit daw di pa ako makatulog, sabi ko kasi madami akong iniisip, he said ano ba daw yun, share ko sa kanya ... so i said number 1 si rabbit i really should not have given her a bath, i feel so guilty, then may sagot si Christian na i just want the kids to be safe and all, then he said ano pa iniisip mo, then sabi ko naman yung schedule ko tomorrow punta sa school kasi nagpapatulong yung school for the program, then yung mga designs ko kung papano ko gagagwin, ano ang schedule ko sa papaprint, meetup, sino uunahin ko etc. Then he said ano pa? sabi ko naman "tapos si rabbit...." he said tapos na si rabbit ah, sabi ko naman recurring eh, paulit ulit siya sa akin.

To cut the story short, when i woke up the next day, open ko door and looked in the basket, rabbit has passed na. I really felt sooooo bad. Kasi walang ibang pwedeng sisihin, kundi ako. No amount of words can let me go of the feeling of being responsible for her loss, ako lang talaga.

Told the kids that "Habbie" is at the animal doctor muna kasi she is a little weak, and maybe i might give her back to her mom kasi she still needs to be with her mommy rabbit. Sad sila pero mukhang kay naman sila, am i convincing myself? Hay.

1 comment:

Suzanne said...

Awww. Super sad naman pala ng nangyari kay Habbie. So sorry about it Ats. It's her time na rin siguro kaya ayun. Do not be too hard on your self. Ewan ha pero hindi ako gaanong agree sa sobrang carry at lapit ng bagets natin sa mga furry animals. Alam mo na, respiratory and skin problems...
Better na you get them fish na lang. :)
Basta, huwag na gaanong sad. :)